you come home in 6 days. You’re scared. I’m scared. I guess it’s a scary thing. Lets not be scared anymore though. I don’t want to spend our time together thinking about whats going to happen in days or months or years. I don’t want to worry about forever. I want to hold you and kiss you and hug you and love you now. I want to live in every moment I have with you and I dont want you to be scared. I want you to be okay. I want to help you to be okay again. I want you to be happy one day and really truely mean it. And t will only come if we don’t live in yesterday and tomorow. Just Now. (Although I would be lying if I said i didnt wish Monday would get here a little sooner.)
Its strange to think that in less than a week I probably wont use this thing anymore. I made it when you left so I could write stuff for you everyday. Well everyday became every week, and every week every month. I guess there’s only so many ways to say im crazy about you. haha. Its strange reading everything.
I just re-read my first big “I Miss You Post” and now Im crying like a baby. Because I still mean every single word I wrote on here.
I wish that I could just give you my heart so yours didnt have to hurt any more.
In a perfect world things would be easier for us I guess but you know what? As cheesy and cliche as it is…nothing good ever came from something easy.
and I still love you
and I still love us
and when you come home it’ll be great as long as we live in the moment and not worry about whats gonna happen next.
